Wake Up!

 “Who or what is the lion you need to kill in your life? This lion is your worst enemy and you will have to face them under the worst circumstances and at the least opportune time.” -Scott Harness Are you willing? Are you ready? “Because fate rarely calls upon us at a moment of our choosing” -Optimus Prime

So who or what is your lion? Mine is fear of rejection and fear of opening my heart up to people that could potentially hurt me either knowingly or unknowingly.

So how did I come to a place where I'm now staring at my lion face to face? It all started earlier in 2020 when the pandemic first started back in March. I was on fire for Jesus ready to take on anything and everything this world and satan had to throw at me. I was in my bible everyday, I was having zoom meetings with my team at my church weekly and going to church online every Sunday but as time and the pandemic progressed, I found myself in God’s word less and praying less.

As I watched my family take hit after hit and watch my kids, my husband, and church members go through every single emotion in a matter of months instead of a matter of years, it began to take its toll on me. I was angry and mad that everything was being taken away from my children and that they were getting hurt and I couldn’t do anything to stop it. I began to pray even less and spend even less time in my word and on top of all this 2020 is the year I turned 40 and yawl 40 is no joke. It’s a scary place to be. You're happy to be alive but you realize you may only have 40-50 years left on this earth. You begin to think back on your life, think back on all those people that have come and gone in your life, you begin to think about the simpler times in life and if you're not careful you will find yourself wishing you were back in that life instead of the one you are living now and this is where I found myself. This has been my struggle for the past several months, so sit back for just a moment as I share with you what God has shared with me as I have gone through this massive inward struggle.

One of the 1st things God showed me is that I absolutely hate when people are being taken advantage of and being hurt for no reason. He showed me that it is happening right now right under my nose. While I am going through this massive inward struggle, I am being blindsided by satan himself as to what is happening everywhere else; my family is under attack, my husband is under attack, my kids are under attack, my friends are under attack, my team is under attack, my church is under attack and if I don’t wake up, it is all fixing to be destroyed. Now I don’t know about you but for me once I realize that i’ve been taken for a ride, I get pretty pissed off and when I get pissed off, it forces me to finally stand up and take back what is rightfully mine.

So what is rightfully mine and how do I take it back? Well in order to do that first I need to remember who I am. I need to remember whose I am and then I will have my answer as to what is rightfully mine. So who am I? A daughter of the One True King Jesus Christ. Whose am I? A daughter of the One True King Jesus Christ. What is rightfully mine? Everything that belongs to Him. Now I just need to take back what is mine but how? Well to do that I need to ask myself some really hard questions and then answer them Oh Lord!

So what do I want? Do I want this life I have now or the life I used to have? If I went back to my past life, what would I have to give up? What would it cost me? Is what I had in the past worth giving up everything I have now? These seem like pretty simple questions but they can be very hard to answer when you are not in your bible and praying like you should. You see satan has an incredible way of making something look amazing and lavish and the only way your gonna be able to see the truth is by letting Jesus into that dark place and letting Him shine His light which is the only light that is able to pierce through the darkness and allow you to see what that darkness truly is. All these thoughts, all this turmoil of me trying to decide whether to throw everything I have now away for a life I used to have is all based on a lie.

Am I seeing the truth? Am I awake yet because God needs me to wake up to see that this is all a mirage. Satan is trying to devour everything I have and once he does, he’ll take the blinders off and reveal to me that what looked lavish and beautiful was actually a desert wasteland and when I reach out for help, he will just walk away laughing. Am I awake yet because nothing good is born from a lie. Remember who and whose you are. Remember the truth because the truth is beautiful. Remember what you had before Jesus, it was slavery and bondage. Remember what you have gained since you have been with Jesus which is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, gentleness, self-control, boldness, confidence, leadership, friendship, forgiveness, and truth. Am I really willing to throw all of this away for a lie? The choice is mine! Which do I choose: light or darkness, freedom or a cell? Wake Up! Jesus is here! Jesus is calling! Jesus is ready! Be the warrior God created you to be and take back what is rightfully yours! I am the daughter of the most high King! Live like it! Stand like it! Love like it! Protect like it!

So what do I choose? Well now that I have been in my bible and in prayer like I should, the choice is simple, I would never give up what I have now based on a lie! You’ve got to be freakin crazy to do something like that, but what part of my past had me in so much turmoil to begin with? It wasn’t anything, it was and is the people. I believed that in order to give up my past I would have to give up the people but Jesus said no. He said I need you to look closer. I need you to look at them from a different perspective. I need you to see them from my perspective and I need you to understand that people don’t just walk into your life for no reason. God always has a reason for someone walking into your life, what is that reason? It’s because either you or they need Jesus. So in closing how do you defeat the lion in your life? You don’t! You get on your knees, get in your bible, pray, and be still because Jesus has already won this battle. He did that the day He sealed His fate on the cross for me and for you!