When God Ran

 Today while I was doing the bible study that we are doing together, the guy mentioned a song "When God Ran", it sounded familiar to me so I looked it up and listened to it and quickly remembered where I had heard it. I remembered it was a time in my life that I will never forget. So if it is ok I would like to take a moment and share it with you, it is a part of my life I don't share too often not because of embarrassment but because of how scared I was.

I remembered that this song helped me through one of my darkest times in my life. Back when I was 22 years old and a very new baby Christian, I went through a major suicidal depression, I was scared for my life because I was afraid I was going to take it (If you have ever been in this place you know exactly what I am talking about). I was running from myself. I was so consumed with fear and anxiety I couldn't do anything. I couldn't eat, drink, sleep, I was completely consumed. All I could do was cry, pray, and listen to music. This song "When God Ran" was one of those songs that I played over and over again.

Many people think that when they turn away from God or walk away from God that you will have to walk an incredible distance to get back to Christ. I however don't believe that for one second. You see during this dark time in my life while the depression, anxiety, & fear were screaming at me, there was this small calm voice that made it through all of that and made it to my heart. It kept saying "Be still" "Focus" "I am right here". That calm quiet voice is what led me out of that very dark place.

That time in my life was a very dark, scary and unsure time in my life but the one thing I am sure about is that while I was in that place, Jesus was right there with me.

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